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It has been so long since I've written here, and I don't even know if anyone still does write anymore or read this, but I just want to say that Bettina's life has been so perfect lately. I've been so incredibly happy, and everyday I wake up feeling like the luckiest girl on the planet.
And it's all because of this one added part, who ended up being the one small factor who ended up coloring my whole world. In fact, he's probably reading this right now and smiling, knowing without a doubt who I am talking about...
I love you more and more everyday Rico. For anyone else reading - this guy... he's the one. =)
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| these last days have been nuts |
[06 Jul 2007|04:55am] |
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4th of july was crazy with the gang at nicholas canyon county beach in malibu, i tried body boarding and almost died LITERALLY. rico and i went out too far, the waves kept getting bigger and bigger, and we freaked the lifeguard out. what ensued was a frantic miming show from an ant-like guard... telling us to come back one second making us paddle our lungs out, then telling us to stay put in the next minute as the waves kept getting larger, then telling us to come back when it was safe. "if you had continued paddling towards the shore i guarantee you would have broken your neck" said the lifeguard. eegad. but IT WAS SO FUN. holy shit. i wanna do it again.
today naman was the longest day ever. sash had work and basso was working on his portfolio, so tourists rico and i rented a car for the day and drove to manhattan beach at 8:30am aka way too early. swam/skimboarded, even made friends with the MOST RANDOM pinoy gang ever. jeez, pinoys are the nicest i swear. then we had lunch at some yakitori place, shopped a little bit, and then made our way at 2pm to disneyland! TOO MANY PEOPLE but my god, the buzz lightyear ride was by far MY FAVORITE. and i was going crazy palang in the souvenir shop with the hats and stuff. sayang the line for the finding nemo submarine ride was 2 hours long... or else we would have gone too! the dumb part was, it took us 20 minutes to frantic running around to find our beat-up saturn rental in the levels of parking lot. being the bright children we are, we were so enthused at being in disneyland that we neglected to remember the LEVEL nor the SECTION.
dinner was with sash, basso, rico and mike at gladstone's in malibu. seafood by the coast, how does that get any better? after, went gimmicking with mike and rico in hollywood, at this club that i can't remember the name of. we had an hour before the sissy california clubs closed, but we made the most of it and yes i do love mike's dancing. I LOVE IT. so much.
so it's been 3 weeks since i arrived in beautiful sunny california. and in a couple of hours, i'll be on my way back to new york again to work again. my extended vacation is now over - and i can't believe it. i had such a great time, and i wish i didn't have a reason to leave! i'm going to miss bumming on the beach with basso, shopping/trying on clothes/kwentuhan with sashy, mike's enthusiastic dancing, even rico my savior-from-3rd-wheel. thank god for wonderful and dependable friends! and now i'm done letter-writing to my hosts and packing. PLEASE LET ME NOT BE OVERWEIGHT IN BAGGAGE TOMORROW.
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| still awake |
[19 Jun 2007|03:55am] |
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okay... now i have jet lag.
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| should i get some bulgogi? |
[15 Jun 2007|04:56pm] |
now that my life is no longer the haywire extravaganza that it was this past month and a half in manila, i now have time to update! whoo.
so i am in korea now, as the subject states. nothing exciting except that on the flight from manila to seoul, i had 2 seats to "stretch out" on. and i still felt like a contortionist. how on earth did i ever like flying?? i know, when i was 4 and i fit perfectly. and they gave me peanuts. nobody gives peanuts in airlines nowadays. did you notice? although this is korean airlines... well the least they can do is drop some kimchi.
i bought something in duty free kanina. me kasi being partially retarded, syempre i took care to make sure my ipod was charged and ready to go right. for a full flight's worth of listening. BUT my headphones, i TOTALLY forgot about. NICE. but it's okay because you know what? they were ready to go anyway. why, you ask?
so my headphones, they were the ones that came with the ipod video na. you know those white ones? well me being not only partially retarded but also absolutely careless, i would drop them everywhere and accidentally dip them in soup, etc. so the endpoint is they were really fug, dirty white na ewan (but that wasn't dirt ha that was STAINS from maybe one to many an encounter with molo soup?!), staticky when too late, and sometimes, on a rare occasion when the bass of the song goes beyond a certain pitch (i'm making this reason up by the way as i have no idea why the following happens) it actually SHOCKS me. like a mild electric shock. enough to parang jolt you, but more annoying then painful. syempre i would keep listening. because yo, i be mad ghetto like that. me and my ghetto earphones. oh, we have such a good time... because of the level of unpredictability. will i get shocked while listening to benjamin costello? or will it be during the ludacris song? the latter does have the mad bass... but the former has nice hair. what? okay point is i guess it's kind of a blessing that they were forgotten under some pillow. STUPID EARPHONES.
so i bought this new pair by a korean brand called "cresyn". they're the ones that wrap around and sort of hang on your ear and mine are black and bright pink. i am listening to my manila summer '07 soundtrack now on my laptop with them connected. "stars in their eyes" by just jack. omg i'm so hipster. can you dig it? no, can you?
oh yeah tapos i forgot to mention, my tita helped me pack my suitcases. you know, not only the luggage pieces but the handcarry. so i have with me my black hobo, my macbook & it's cave, and this large rolling green thing with guns on it and i checked in 2 other larger pieces. grabe the gun thing was SO HEAVY. so i opened it for security to check because they discovered a scandalous bottle of nivea lotion through the xray, only to find out that KAYA PALA - the damn thing is filled with 8 bags of paning's buto ng pakwan. i was almost ready to drop them on the floor, but then my love for their goodness took over and i decided i would just enlist some strapping young korean boy to help me put them in. ooohh. just kidding. but really, who knew that those little assholes were so heavy?? they're made of salt! and buto! and pakwan! (?????)
so i'm going a little crazy. didn't sleep at all last night after wry and isa left the apartment at 4am, got to the airport a bit late, emotional rollercoaster a while ago at the gate and before take-off. i mean, shouldn't saying goodbye get easier as i should be a pro at this point?? but noooo. sniffle attack, and i couldn't even call isa so i texted her nalang telling her that i couldn't call! lest i become incoherent! hahaha.
oh what i would give to go to alchemy tonight with my girls.
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[10 Jun 2007|05:11am] |
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last saturday night in manila and it was FUN! but god do i hate my newfound insomnia. and my nasty habit of waking up early. but whatever... it is finally coming to an end but damn has this trip been fun.
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| i hate goodbyes |
[23 Apr 2007|06:07pm] |
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i had the best time with my mom today, we packed all my morning and when the weighing scale readings of luggage weight agreed with us, we had some lunch al fresco at chez oskar, this rustic french cafe a couple of blocks away accompanied by the bat. saw a friend of my mom's and found out that alec wec, citizen cope, and ted allen from queer eye just moved into the neighborhood. then i treated my mom to a mani/pedi, did some grocery shopping, and now i'm back home. today was super sunny, everyone was out in their summer dresses and shorts and sandals, and life in brooklyn seemed to be happily going on.
so this is it. goodbye new york, hello manila, and hello LA.
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| i'm unemployed!! YEAH. |
[16 Apr 2007|11:59pm] |
i had my last day of work today. oh, it was so sad. goodbyes suck. i don't want to talk about it. =(
the funny thing is, regardless of the fact that i no longer have to work, i still can't rest. in fact, the craziness only begins! tomorrow i'm waking up almost just as early, and literally running all over the damn city to get all my shit together. i need a new laptop bag and i hope the one i spotted in bloomingdales is still there... i need to buy new mario badescu skincare products because i'm running out... i need to transfer banks from northfork to bank of america since northfork is only a tri-state bank and i'm feeling bad because my box of cute little horse-embossed checks just arrived a little over a month ago... i need to cancel my crunch gym membership... most importantly, i need to pack everything i own into boxes. ugh. not looking forward to that! i also need to teach my parents how to use itunes because without me, they would be hopeless. their ipods would be paperweights or display pieces. ahaha. oh, my sad little technologically-challenged parents. how i love them so.
i was also thinking all day today that horror of horrors, the time has come where i cannot ignore my need for glasses. in the thirst to quench my never-ending geekiness appetite for knowledge, i recently bought 4 new books. i'm in the middle of reading "american psycho" by bret easton ellis (fascinating book), and every single time i read for more then 30 minutes my eyes tear and i get this massive, pounding migraine. plus, when i cover my left eye, everything beyond 5 feet is insanely fuzzy. i'm like... this amazing 1-eyed woman. i really think my right eye is just for show because it damn well does nearly nothing.
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[19 Mar 2007|11:02pm] |
being the master procrastinator i am, i just filed for my passport 2 saturdays ago. and now i'm reading about all this crap about huge delays in passport processing due to new ridiculous american laws requiring you to have a passport to get to puerto rico, canada, mexico, etc. all i know is holy shit if i do not have my passport in time for my flight to manila on the 24th i will murder children and kittens on the street. indiscriminately.
lhgh;slkhg;kfhgklh;fkghfkjhgkfhg;lkh;k;kjtriutohthskldf. i'm so bored right now. monday is over and i am getting praises again from everyone in my office for my work - reports are of another raise of about $10,000. shat. so work is going excellently... i missed a company trip to new orleans last weekend due to the emergence of nutty ice storms in the northeast though, stupid cancelled flights. little do the friendly folks in my office know that in 2 weeks, i am giving my 2 weeks notice and leaving all their asses in the dust! mwahaha. okay, i'm a little sad about that.
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[26 Feb 2007|06:48pm] |
"You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? Even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone.
You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place."
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| winter has finally arrived on the east coast at -10 degrees |
[17 Jan 2007|08:00pm] |
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doesn't the cold weather, when it chills you to the bones, mercilessly wind whips your face into a raw mass of bleeding flesh and simultaneous numbness, makes you reach for your hood, makes you grab for your gloves and curse when you can't find the damn things in your bag, make you feel so terribly so inexplicably so goddamn amazingly alive?
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[06 Jan 2007|06:15pm] |
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walking around in soho today, i was completely thrilled, confused and i must admit more than slightly frightened as i made my way through the t-shirt/shorts/flipflops wearing crowd. why? because this, folks, is global warming at it's most blatant and bizarre. 72 degrees today. and it's january. in new york. the northeast known for cold winters. i was in a dress. with no jacket. until now, my feeble mind cannot get around it.
my parents and i have this ongoing bet. we have this foot-tall glass jar chock-full of coins (although not quarters, as those go to the laundry fund). we're going to bring it to the bank tomorrow, and whoever guesses the closest to the exact amount gets the money. haha. my dad is so hardcore about it too which is absolutely hilarious! he's like "write your guesses on a piece of paper! and fold it 3 times! and then i'll staple it!" just so no one cheats. my (winning?) guess is $95. dun dun dun DUN. i hope i win!!
oh, and this morning i checked my email and got the most random message ever. i don't know if that person is reading this, but it was a nice surprise and thank you.
is it possible to be obsessed with a song? because i am 150% obsessed with "starlight" by muse. like during work when i can't listen to my ipod, i go into a little panic attack and until i get it to play in my head, and upon getting out of work or whatever activity i am doing i put it on repeat a million times. it's frightening, just like the weather.
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| welcoming the new year |
[31 Dec 2006|06:56pm] |
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a funny/macabre story to end the year: a while ago coming from grocery shopping we were driving by a huge cemetery while going past the BQE. we're talking with the backdrop of the manhattan skyline, rows and rows of gleaming tombstones of various sizes, all shining in the bright winter daylight. and i began to wonder how many new years their inhabitants had seen, what each one had been like, how their lives had been lived. and then it struck me that eventually, we're all going to come to it. scary and incredible thought, that every moment is fleeting and in time it will be gone.
so all this time, before that moment of realization, i made this whole long list for next year. and in the end i realize it's really my entry #5 that is going to matter. '06 was punctuated by a lot of landmark, memorable things... things i'm happy about, things i regret, lots of opportunities to grow up and grow a little wiser. this year i may have taken a lot of things for granted, but it's next year '07 that i'm really going to begin to take control of my life and really cherish it. the aforementioned list:
1. be more thoughtful and thankful.
2. actually use my rusting crunch gym membership.
3. eat healthier. (no more mexican delivery and chinese take-out!)
4. control my shopping (no more crazy splurges).
5. take more risks, go a little crazier, live a little harder.
happy new year's kiddies! love to you all!!
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"A being afire with life cannot foresee death; in fact, by each of his deeds he denies that death exists."
- Marguerite Yourcenar
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[25 Dec 2006|11:55am] |
it's 8:48am california time and it's the day we're leaving san francisco and the oreta's... i hate leaving. but i guess the magicical irony lies when you realize that you never never really leave them..
merry christmas everyone, and my only christmas wish is that everyone is where they should be, at this moment.
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| tin's survey thing |
[20 Dec 2006|10:31pm] |
Think Fast, Answer Honestly
Answer with the first thing that pops into your head! DONT CHEAT!!!
1. My ex is still...
somewhere alive and breathing i suppose.
2. I am listening to...
"dear jamie ... sincerely me" by hellogoodbye.
3. Maybe I should...
start packing for san francisco.
4. I love...
this song!!
5. My bestfriend(s)...
... are seriously gifts from the heavens. i thank my lucky stars every damn day, because not many people can be as blessed as i. cliche, but true.
6. I dont understand...
how people can deal with the whole work culture of limited vacation days. UGH. amazing.
7. I lost my respect for....
the whole new-yorkers-are-so-cool deal. now that i've been here a while, i'm no longer fazed or awed.
9. The meaning of my screen name is...
i like avocado, and i like the color blue. simple.
10. Love is...
a crazy, unexplainable thing.
11. Somewhere, someone is...
thinking of me? (i hope!)
12. I will always...
love shopping. and have a mental weakness for shopping.
13. Forever seems...
like such a terribly long time, no?
14. I never ever want to lose...
my loved ones.
15. My mobile phone is...
about to die because i keep dropping it all the time on hard surfaces from great heights.
16. When I wake up in the morning...
i'm always hoping it's not going to be too cold. yeah right, it's just going to get worse! hello winter. i hate you.
17. I get annoyed at...
LOTS OF THINGS. namely hypocrites, racism, people who walk too slow, people who stop in the middle of the sidewalk abruptly, incompetence, and those who blindly follow.
18. Parties are...
okay but i've kind of outgrown them to be honest.
19. My pet(s)..
is a big fat loser in a mini chihuahua package. i love him to bits.
20. Kisses are.....
lovely, but second to hugs.
21. Today ...
was hectic and crazy and i'm exhausted! work. it kills!!
22. I really want...
to stop flicking tabloids and fashion magazines and start reading the economist again like i used to.
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[19 Dec 2006|08:18pm] |
the most retarded thing happened yesterday. i was shopping with my mom went i got a call from the fraud center on my cellphone. a couple of calls to the fraud center and north fork bank and it was confirmed - identify theft in the most horrible way!! apparently, from 10am-2pm that sunday, there were multiple charges on my card. and not just any charges from any old location. we're talking charges from malaysian airlines, charges from paris, charges from LA, debited right out of my checking out. the worst part is that it's not even just credit, these bastards went straight for cash reserves i actually had! GRRRRRRRR. so to clear all of this up, aside from battling automated phone systems (which i hate), i had to go to north fork today all the way downtown, and i have to go again tomorrow. so annoying and inconvenient. thousands of $$$s from practically everywhere in the damn world. how does this happen?? afterwards my dad lectured me on the dangers of online shopping, which i'm such a sucker for. it's really what i do in my spare time when i'm not sleeping, working, physically shopping. i mean, it's so easy! so... i will try and hold off for now. no more online shopping. goodbye. =(
so other than that, tis the season and everyone is going home to manila! i wish i was going home too damnit. especially since it seems that everybody is going to bora too! today at work i was dreaming about bangenges, warm seawater, white sand and some tender slices of lechon. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeh! someone want to mail me some lechon? although i'm happy for now i have polvoron. and tang. and nestea. and sampaloc. and choki-choki. yeah, i had the most ridiculous requests from my parents who just came from manila, but in new york we're pretty much deprived!
today was 63 degrees! absolutely beautiful, and tomorrow it's dropping 20 degrees. how nuts is east coast weather right now?
my shopbop orders and the "all dogs go to heaven" dvd arrived in the mail today. yay!
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| goldfish memory |
[04 Dec 2006|12:04pm] |
so here i am alone in the apartment again, as my parents are en route to manila at this very moment, leaving me behind boohoo. just like last last weekend when they were in paris, except for much longer this time (2 weeks). it's funny that with my parents around, i'm pretty much a sloppy person. not the sloppiest, but if i can hold off with something i will as much as is humanely possible. but by myself i become... my mother. you know - anal about keeping everything in place, keeping the floor absolutely clean, every plate i use has to be washed immediately, my bed quickly made, etc. the works. if i could follow the chihuahua-bat around the apartment with the wetjet swiffer i probably would. isn't that weird?
i've also been reliving the past in a way that is particularly worrisome. for example, a couple of days ago i was having an absolute BALL watching "annie", the old version, which used to be one of my most favorite videos. yes, i was that kid who watched the VHS every day until one day it mysteriously disappeared. concerned and intervening parents? i will never know. but those were the days. plus, i now have "walk like an egyptian" by the bangles on my itunes. as well as "jump" by van halen. although i blame mtv's "i love the 80's" and manhattan's "keybar" for that trip down memory lane. nothing can explain me remembering living in westfield, nj though, and watching movies in rialto, chucking stones at snails in echo lake park, school skating days at warinanco, UGH. what's wrong with me? but by god i loved that town, it's definitely a good place to raise a family. (what am i saying?) did you know that ED was filmed in westfield? neither did i.
on another random topic, i'm so excited for next year... i feel like it's going to be mad times indeed. moving across the country, into my own apartment, choosing a new car (murano vs. prius vs. mini cooper vs. beetle, although what i really want is the new tiguan by VW... rawr out september '07 my butt), paying for literally everything on my own. of course i'm going to have to cut down shopping from the hyperspeed momentum it is at right now to let's say... daffy's every other weekend, but whatever. the thing is everything is going to be my very own, to do whatever the hell i want with, and yes, there will be a bulldog. there will definitely be a bulldog. a cute fuzzy ball of brown and white fur that i already know i'm going to name something absolutely ridiculous. like tomato, or alien, or cheesecake.
and do you ever have those random moments where you resolve to do something, start on it, and then forget the underlying purpose after all? like me on my macbook. i know getting online had some deeper point, but i can't remember why. so now here i am typing this inane post... i hope it doesn't snow tomorrow, because i'm not mentally prepared.
oh now i remember, i was supposed to be getting a tofu recipe.
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